welp, Neuro Thing forced me to drop out of my courses. I’m not happy about it, but there’s not really any point in dwelling on it any more than the illness is already making me do; it certainly won’t magically change things, it’ll only ramp up the depression.
What have I learned?
- to call Shine Lawyers.
- I work optimally by myself, OR, with people who take the class as seriously as I do (…and respect the lecturers, dammit. ugh…)
- my concentration issues are only exacerbated when I’m someone’s dictionary/proofreader in the middle of class itself
- anxiety at its current level demands I absolutely do not make myself any kind of target for my peers
- a decent sleep schedule and consistent med schedule is VITAL to my ongoing functioning
- actually, just having a schedule in general puts me five steps ahead of the disease in any given situation, anyway
- the neurological damage caused by the drugs my malpracticing asshole ex-psych coerced me into taking last year definitely counts as part of my disability oh my gosh I am willing to get into very stern arguments with anyone who says otherwise
- travel and school food is expensive; I need to budget better
- ‘Integrated Korean’ may be the textbook that school wants us to use, but that SO does not make it a good textbook
- white students are feckin’ annoying and need to learn to STFU when teachers are talking
What do I do now?
- keep studying Korean, of course! …with different textbooks (>_>;;)
- brush up on my Japanese before class begins (January 3rd…ish? must check)
- …hope like heck I ‘fall through the cracks’ regarding enrollment and performance again, and thusly avoid red tape (>____>;;;;)
- clean my house and put my Christmas tree up? :O
- livetweet MAMA on Friday night :3 (was way too bummed out to even watch last night, sigh)